A rotten week

The first part was a ROTTEN week. I spent Mon and Tues having a big pity party for myself. Not much of a party though when nobody else want to join you. :( Anyhow...I am so thankful that my God loves me enough to not let me continue on in my selfishness. I just got to feeling very overwhelmed with my circumstances and began to tell God and myself that I just couldn't handle it," He must have made a mistake in giving me so much to deal with!" You know, the old "God won't give you more than you can handle" bit. I always assumed God understood that I COULDN'T handle much and that is why my life has been pretty smooth. Monday I was convinced He had me confused with someone else. As the week has progressed He was continuing to bring to my attention that this life I live is not about me. It doesn't help I'm studying Philippians and Paul was rejoicing ALL the time, even in prison! (he sure made it hard for me to feel my problems are tough)
So last night I starting to repent of my self-centeredness and today God brings me to Matt. and the story of Peter walking on the water. I have always thought of his having "little faith" was talking about his faith in Christ. I have been challenged to see it as Peter having little in himself or a better way of putting it is to say he had little faith in what Christ could do with and through him. I believe Peter had faith in Christ because he called out for Christ to save him, he didn't believe that he had the ability to walk on water. He didn't of course but Jesus had the ability to make Peter walk on water. I'm not sure this is making sense. The thought just occurs to me that I am so worried that I can't handle the stresses in my life, but I don't have to Jesus is right there in the center of the whole mess stretching out his hand to me. I know my God can do anything and now I need to live out the fact I can do anything through Him.

My favorite quote lately- "Quit telling God how big your problems are and start telling your problems how big your God is!"